Clarity

It has always been a dream of mine to do a shoot of myself looking like a fairy. I guess most girls do too. When I was younger, I remember how much every fairy tale I watched moved me. It has made me wish for the same thing to happen in my life.

But growing up, I think I have been more exposed to reality. And more importantly, some bad decisions. At times it has swayed my beliefs, my hopes, whenever I do something wrong.Though I do get second chances to at least make things better, they always end up opposite of what I hoped. 

To counter, I always think that some things are just not meant to be. But a good friend once told me that it will always depend on how I would react to a situation. It will always depend on what and how I’ll do things. He said, ‘it’s like wanting to win the lottery but never marked tickets.’ Maybe I was too pushy, and I was too negative about things concerning us.

Then it made me think. What do I want to do about things? Frankly, I don’t know. At least for now , I don’t. Everything’s cloudy (like the weather right now). 

I've seen the good and the bad in most people. And I've seen more good things in you. I hope, somehow you've seen some good things in me too. :)

Today is a fairy tale, you are the prince :)

I've been singing this song by Taylor Swift since I watched the movie Valentine's Day earlier on ETC. Haha XD Anyway, lately I noticed that my memory has been failing me for several times. At one point, I forgot this very important task I had to do for a specific day. And I've also forgotten some important dates that well, needs to be remembered. It's prolly because I've been spending most of my time playing and a little time on reading and writing. And so, the other day I decided to read Les Misérables again and I was actually hoping to find a new book to read. I've spent a good amount of time in National Bookstore last weekend hoping to find a new one to add on my list. Good thing my friend Kay made me borrow a book called The Happiness Project -- and for the record, I am not sad, confused or feeling down lately.

Hahaha. XD So far I've finished reading January - March (the chapters are in months) and I am enjoying it :) It made me think, yes I am pretty happy with my life now but it also made me wonder, can I be happier? And if yes, how? Also, the goals in each month made come up with some of my own. Haha. Like yesterday, I finally decided to clean my study table (and boy, there were so many paper works and projects  that I just had to throw). Plus, I saw some manuals that I don't really need anymore. It also made me look at my closet and shoe rack and checked if there was something I'm not really wearing (and won't be wearing in the future). Also, I've been less emotional and sensitive with some of life's issues recently. And, I've been trying to care less about getting less recognition from some people. So far, everything's great, and I'm starting to feel a lot better. Oh by the way, this book is a lot more than cleaning and emotions ;) I feel so happy that I'm reading again. It's always good to keep your mind busy from time to time, hehe :)

I've feeling a lot better lately that I feel energized and focused :) Here, you see my somewhat messy planner. I felt so good that it was a productive Saturday since I checked everything on my to-do list. I even had time to read some interesting articles on the internet and of course, play online games. Hahaha. I also use my planner as a journal. And then back read to see how I felt for the past weeks, months and even years! It's a good way to also check my progress :) You should try it too! I've also been trying to stay healthy nowadays. I've been cutting down on chocolates (I was never really a fan before, I dunno why I suddenly had this huge craving for chocolate for like 2 months), minimizing my caffeine intake (coffee :<) and exercising. So far, I think I making some little improvement everyday hihi. Wish me luck on this one :)

The other too, I was able to see some make up eye make up tips on Kera's February 2013 issue. Honestly, the only thing I know how to put on is eyeliner. And I'm who doesn't like retouching. More of like a 1-time application would be great. I've always been a fan of Etude House's Proof 10 Liquid Liner. But they don't have stocks in every branch I go to. Pretty frustrating actually. So I'm stuck with L'oreal -- and since it's expensive, I'm now using Nichido's mineral liquid eyeliner. I love it! The brush is like a pen so it isn't hard to apply, it's really dark (no need for multiply coats), water proof and really affordable (less than 200 php) :) So anyway, back to that eye make up I saw, it's this one:

So, I'm thinking of buying eyeshadow and mascara (since I don't really like putting falsies on, hehe). Can you suggest where to buy some good ones? And not really the expensive ones (those that cost around 2000 php up) XD

Oh and yes, you will regularly be seeing me on Shuffle+ Magazine. I'll be contributing some looks in their dress up section. Hehehe :D I hope you can grab a copy of the magazine :)

And I aslo decided to be active on Lookbook again~ :D My latest look below :3

So yeah, I think I'll end this post here :) Thank you so much for reading! Aaaaaaaand, Happy Chinese New Year everyone~!!! Share tikoys! :P

Gifts, Thank you :)

Lately, I've been getting some really awesome gifts from very talented people. I'm not really that hard to please. And I'm also not saying these gifts are mediocre. In fact, they're really, really awesome. Drawing can be a hobby, but being able to come up with good art is a talent. I for one, can't really draw -- yes it's one of my frustrations XD So I'd like to thank the following for these really awesome gift art :)

Jeff's :)

He had this framed and given to me as a birthday present :)

Yes, my current blog header~ :)

Nicolai's

Eva Mae's

My bby Allison's

Pretty and talented Narue's

Rhon's

And the very sweet (and one of my favorite girls) Aira's

Thank you everyone, you don't know how much I love these~! I wish to posses this talent too. Mehe :3

I'll be ending this post here, ja~